The Eclipse. A rare moment when two opposites which never usually meet sit together in a single combined experience. It’s a perfect illustration for all of 2017 for me.
It seemed that every painful low was matched simultaneously with an equal high.
Each sadness was juxtaposed with gladness.
- Our trip to China was like this, as our senses took in beauty and wonder while our stomachs lurched with illness.
- I struggled tearfully through papers that gave me headaches to write - and those were the ones that got me the furthest in my classes.
- My beautiful Pa was sleeping painlessly, but the rest of the family was torn by exhaustion and round the clock care.
- Pa died - on Christmas.
- We watched the ball drop together two nights ago - as I coughed and sniffled and shook with fever.
Such duality! My heart is confused looking back on this year, but all this weirdness has grown me up.
That’s good... right?
Well, today the New Year is actually feeling new for me. My energy is returning. The shadow is passing and the light is peeping through again. Fevers are breaking, foggy eyes are clearing, and this new year is waiting for me, eager to teach.
Here’s to the balance.